Acrylic on canvas, 23”x29”
I had no idea where this painting was going to go, or what it would be called – I was just inspired by a photo in a book of large gourd shell, carved into a bird feeder and decorated with rich patterns, which seemed so gorgeous with its sensual curves and shiny surface. In the last few months of working on this painting, I thought a fair bit about dying and death... where will I go, what will I become, who or what will be there at the end... the answer that feels the most real to me is.... the universe. It gives me some comfort to think that when I'm able to let go of all that I've made, all the words that I've spoken, all the patterns and habits that I've woven in this lifetime, the natural universe will be there to welcome me with open arms (hopefully!). It could also be, that the natural universe is already inside me.